1. Excuses, excuses. Sometimes life gets the best of me. Timeless phases littered on the floor before my enemy. Who’s to blame? Failed attempts to find a remedy to this pain. Who’s fault is it? As our oxygen supply slowly eats away bit by bit. Lungs are blackened by the filth that I’m breathing. Polluted thoughts infect the innocent, but when the innocent speak out it’s considered high treason against a government that dubs conservators as heathens. The weather changes while the time bomb is ticking away through the seasons. Fading away like a dying flame. Our hands cocked and ready to point our fingers, placing the blame. Excuses, excuses. When will we take responsibility for our own actions? As the lights and camera focus on us, we become twisted, shifting our reactions. Tell little white lies to serve as a distraction. Phony personages. False identities like a character on a stage. How can you bow to the crowd when you can’t even show your face. Enough is enough. Take charge and deal with your action’s burdens. Extinguish the fuse. No more excuses.
2. Umm… Period. Parenthesis. Usually I’m pretty articulate with the way I speak. But at the mere sight of you my knees go weak. It’s like nothing goes right. I walk with two left feet. You’re awfully cunning with your sleight of speech. Your devious tongue can whisper the secrets of my heart. Sugar, you’re too much for me. If I had diabetes, my levels would be off the chart. (haha) Wait. What am I doing? After all the times my heart has been metaphorically removed I told myself I wouldn’t give in to amour no more. But you’re awfully cute. The way your hair glistens when the light hits it just right. The way your dimples frame your snow white smile; it lights up the night. The way your eyes remind me of the Pacific Ocean ; I can’t swim so I get lost in them. You know what? Fuck all my precedents of what love should be. I want to wake up to the symphony of your voice. Let me download the mp3. They say love is blind, but you were my Braille. Ooh girl, I swear we’ve got chemistry. Your stare melted my heart like a zero on the pH scale. You are everything and nothing less. We can be like oreos and milk, Bonnie and Clyde . I’m Batman and you’re Robin my heart. Hold up, what’s this feeling in my stomach. I might need to fart. Nevermind. Must’ve been a swarm of butterflies; Or maybe fireworks when it’s not July. You were the queen who conquered my king. Our sweet nothings flourished into a game of chess. You kept me in check. You won with ease, but I had never wanted to lose so much in my life. Close parenthesis.
3. As the snow hesitantly hovers closer to the ground you and I, enveloped in a cocoon of woolen blankets, can silently gaze into the face of the city; a city breathing with new life as the spectrum of lights dance against the night. Your gloved hand in mine as we sip hot chocolate cautiously. Clouds of breath circulate the air as we examine passing moments. There’s no need to go anywhere. Time appears to be nothing but an outdated relic of a more complicated day.
4. Every morning, as my “The Office” ringtone sounds on my alarm, I wearily stumble out of my bed and tear another day off of my tableside calendar.
“Just a few more days Kiet”, I routinely recite to myself as I lightly touch my forehead against the wall. Chills run down my bare back as I awkwardly step into the morning and away from the warm comfort of my bed.
“I’ll miss you”, I jokingly whisper to my pillow. With one last groan, I throw on a dress shirt I found on the ground. Whether clean or filthy, it was undistinguishable. There’s really no point in trying anymore. Winter Break was basically here. And that meant that Iowa would no longer sustain me. I had already booked my ticket for the 21st (the final day of school before we were let off) and even the fact that our vacation days were slashed didn’t deter me from my happiness. But this joy was oddly bittersweet. By spending quality time with my family on the West Coast I’ll be missing out on several festivities that my friends are throwing throughout the holidays. This year, alone, I’ve made so many more friends. In such a short time, I’ve established close relationships with various people whom I never would have guessed would be so important in my life. A few years ago and even last year, I would’ve left Iowa without a second glance back. Things have changed. I usually despise any form of change; the status quo being a trustworthy ally, but change was for the better. This year has really hit home and I’ve never been more attached to my life than I am now.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m still overly excited to reunite with my favorite people in the entire world, walk through the chilled streets of downtown San Francisco, waver between wakefulness and slumber at every stop on the Caltrain, and exchange gifts on the 25th. I hardly ever get to see them and when I do, it’s like we were never apart. So in the end, I’ll enjoy my break either way. I just wish I was able to be at two places at once.